Tap on my window knock on my door

I have so many things to be thankful for today.

1. I was doing cashier duty since 10am to 6pm and honestly was dead beat. It came to a point where sometimes I would just stone (in front of customers even) and ofc you can imagine my manager wasnt exactly pleased about the idea. Since I’m a newbie and havnt really got a through intro to tillpt, I’m unclear about many things and yea haha therefore altho I learn along the way, I do get my fair share of “gentle reminders” from managers.

Part of our routine is to remove security tags. You may think Oh it’s just removing those cumbersome UFO like looking things how hard can it be to miss it? The consequences if you miss out taking the security tags can be rather unpleasant and humiliating so I was really afraid and so so careful.

I was packing all the items of a customer into the plastic bag when one colleague walked past and happened to see what I’m packing
The pack of baby socks happened to catch her eye
Which happened to conceal a security tag hidden right in the middle of it.

Honestly, I was shocked and quite distraught. I mean, how in the world would I know? The socks are so thick and the odds are so small but yet God has his ways of making sure I’m protected and favoured divinely. Really amen bless the lord

I’m so tired, so tired of trying in every way. My eyelids are crashing down like metal shutters

But am I gonna give up?
No way

Not this time

You know how they say there are monsters hiding in all of us? There’s this monster in me, and when it comes out it bring tides of senses. Abandonment, indifference, of nothing but sweet numbness. It dissolves my sense of morality at times and I guess this papagraph alone explains this “season of change” I’m being perceived to be going through now because really, it was in me all along.